Question

Who did you wind up liking that you didn’t want anything to do with at first?

Question Of The Day

What is missing from your life that you used to get from a person you are no longer around, no longer with, or cannot be with?

On That Day

Yesterday I thought about the victims of the 1993 World Trade Center bombing, and the 2004 attack on a school in Beslan, Russia. And the train bombings in Madrid in 2004. And the nightclub bombing in Bali in 2002. And the terrorist attacks in Mumbai in 2008. And the thousands of attacks that have killed tens of thousands of Iraqis over the past ten years.

Who mourns these deaths, except the friends and families of the victims? Who mourns the many, many thousands who have been wounded and maimed? 

9/11 is not just a day for Americans. Nearly 400 people from other countries lost their lives on that day as well, including 66 Britons, 47 Dominicans, 41 Indians, 28 Koreans, 24 Japanese, 24 Canadians and many others, including from Switzerland, Ghana, Jamaica, China, Peru, New Zealand, Mexico, Ukraine, Uzbekistan, Portugal, Brazil, France and El Salvador. 

And since that September day, civilians have been killed by terrorists on every day of the year, year after year.

When September Ends

As my memory rests... But never forgets what I lost... Wake me up when September ends...

Zombie Killers With Mics

The Zombie Killin Clan..so far:

ReviveMe ImDown --U.S
iRevive4Points --Australia
iNeedAMaxAmmo--U.S
TR3YARCH SUKZ--Canada
????? LeaveACrawler (maybe)--??


You can't stop us.

The Dog That Chases The Car;

It's gotten bad and things are different. Somehow...you lost yourself out there. Things used to be good. Really good. But there's this new you and I don't know if I can go on like this anymore. This shouldn't even be that hard. We arent near eachother so that already makes it more difficult. But it shouldn't be...But it helps when you're actually there. You asked me to be there for you and I am but that means you need to just be here. I'm so lost and it seems like I'm not going to find my way back and that makes me sad. You know when you have something so good and then it's just gone? I know the signs I've been here before every single word... So if this is the new you I don't know if I want any part in this. Unfriendly. Cold. And silent. So silent. The quietness is probably what bothers me the most it's like everything's okay and then BAM...I mean...did I do something? Say too much or not enough? If I'm just running in circles just tell me. I'm tired of feeling like this. 

Losing Too Many Miles At Once....

you've got to get better,
said, it's all in your head,
we could live through these letters
or forget it altogether,
see the months they dont matter
its the days i can't take
when the hours move to minutes
and i'm seconds away,

just ask the question come untie the knot
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
retrace the steps, as if we forgot,
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
you try to avoid it, but there's not a doubt
and there's one thing i can do nothing about...

when all that we need is just a reaction,
its too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore,
chasing our dreams is just a distraction
i want to remember what i know...
that i can't go back,

Excuse Me, You're One Heck Of A Guy

Anyway I think I met him sometime before
In a different life or where I record
I mean he was Adam, I think I was Eve
But my vision ends with the apple on the tree
'S' on my chest cuz I'm ready to save him
Cuz I'm the one like I'm Tracy McGrady



Anyway I think I met him in the Sky
When I was a Geisha he was a Samari
Somehow I understood him when he spoke Thai
Never spoke lies and he never broke fly

If I Fedex My Love,
Will You Sign For My Heart?

Ohh Boy

He always in the air, but he never fly coach
He a motherfucking trip, trip, sailor of the ship, ship
When he make it drip, drip kiss him on the lip, lip
That's the kind of dude I was lookin' for
And yes you'll get slapped if you're lookin' hoe
I said, excuse me you're a hell of a guy
I mean my, my, my, my you're like pelican fly
I mean, you're so shy and I'm loving your tie
You're like slicker than the guy with the thing on his eye

Bottle Caps

A dreamer who searched for treasure,
but only found bottle caps

Good Morning Singapore

Good morning Singapore I'm bringing the sun with me
From the Robert Taylor homes to African slum cities
I am American mentally with Japanese tendencies
Got my gold watch
And my gold chain
With my fancy car
And my diamond ring
With my ghetto broad
And she's so plain
Gotta couple SCARS
And one of those long names
And she fight a nigga
And cusses wit no shame
Let's peruse the essential of cool
A brief study of the things so instrumental to you
That make me feel flyer than lobbys at bellevues
An exclaimer just aramore no credentials from a school
My not go to college but my street smart polished
Like the black finger nails of that punk rock logic
Do the knowledge, man you can't be punk from projects
Firm disbeliever in your punch clock promise
Got my gold watch
And my gold chain
With my fancy car
And my diamond ring
With my fancy broad
And she full grain
So it's no words
And it's no slang
And I'm no trick
And I'm no lame
It's just so sick
That she's so game

Lost At Sea

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Fishhhhhh

I love to see her silhouette reflectin' off the water
With her hooks and her sinkers and her pretty pink bobbers
The first time I saw her I knew I was in love
'Cause I found a girl who loves to...

Fish, I love to see her lyin'
There on the bank 'neath the full moon light
Man, I can't even believe my luck

Look Into My Eyes And I'll Own You

Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me 'til you're drunk
And I'll show you

Just shoot for the stars
If it feels right
And aim for my heart
If you feel like
Can take me away and make it ok
I swear I'll behave

You wanted control
So we waited
I put on a show
Now I make it
You say I'm a kid
My ego is big
I don't give a shit

I don't need to try to control you
Look into my eyes and I'll own you

mlib.

Today my bros and I were slamming down natties watching the Victoria Secret fashion show when we thought, I hope that runway leads to the kitchens where those women belong. MLIB

I'm Stuck Inside A Poem

When are we going to finally be over this stupid rift? I've been here before...too many times. But I'm a sucker. I'll ways be. I'm willing to take the risk. I'm so petrified, I'm so scared to step into this ride. What if I lose my heart and fail... declined? I won't forgive me if i give up trying. I heard his voice today from a memory I keep tucked away, I didn't know a single word he said. Not one resemblance to the man I met. Just a vacant boy. Why do I do these things to myself? No matter how hard I try I might as well give up. What's there waiting for me after everything? Emptiness yet again...probably. I've been in this horrible mood lately and it's dragging me and everyone around me down and the sad thing is I have no idea how even start to get out. Is this just wasted time? I'm sorry to all my friends for being like this. Thank you Normy and Wes for your advice and to everyone else. I guess I'll see where this path leads.......home or hell. Ughhh in this night, I need to call you but all the lines are blown. If only you knew, how empty I feel. But maybe then you're lonely too, and it's tearing through you like a punctured wound. Maybe no one knows what to do. You’re all strong bones... they hold no water. Got the big fake smile, you just get sadder.
Time wound down and you've been cached. Because half measured shows are all half ass. How did we ever end up this way? And I fall numb in disarray, I’m just cultivating my ignorance. Didn't we have some standards once? This has been my year spent in exile. Second guessed and dressed up in tatters. My birth feet didn't take this path did they? And I'm still looking for a life that matters, more than just chit-chat. I can hardly breathe, and i release into one thousand pieces I have broke in to, over you. If nothing else I am at least myself. It's all I have to give. Everything's changing now, we could live like kings if we take the risk. Or we could live with doubt but one thing i know for sure...everything's changing now. Now I'm stuck inside a poem and then I'm walking by myself...in the dark, all alone... and these actors and dramatists they won't send me home. Well, maybe I'm like my father...strung out on something or another held to a standard. The one we were always sinking under. And maybe I'm like my mother. She shattered cause no one loved her.

Well there goes my life...passing me by like every departing flight.

Death Of Me...

I think I'm drowning, asphyxiated... I wanna break this spell that you've created... You're something beautiful, a contradiction... I wanna play the game, I want the friction... You will be the death of me

My Hands, They Were Strong. But My Knees.. They Are Weak

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it

Well Would Ya Look At That..Just Look At It

Milk and cereal
Animal beatbox
Look At That
David After The Dentist
Ultimate Dog Tease

Far Away;

Fields are deathly quiet
Where the cotton used to grow
I'm a stranger in a land
That I used to know
In a land
A land I've not forgotten
Look away
Far Away

Everything has changed here
"Cept some things inside of me
I've hid 'em from the world
Kept them under lock and key
Like the sound of my mama's voice
Callin' me back home
To the place
Where I belong

Far Away
Far Away
Don't know why I left you
And look how long I've stayed
Far away
Far away
How'd I get so far away

Carved my name one Sunday morning
On a sweet magnolia tree
I cried when I walked away
Broke my heart to leave
Took that little piece of me
Put it in my pocket
I've lost myself a time or two
And I never once forgot it

Far away
Far away
Don't know why I left you
And look how long I've stayed
Far away
Far away
How'd I get so far away

Far away
Far away
Don't know why I left you
But look how long I've stayed
Far away
Far away
How'd I get so far away
How did I get so far away

Or You Could Be Hollow

I haven't lost anything except my mind (except my mind)
Expect a thousand confessions that you will not find
I try to take off my head sometimes,
because I can't escape the memories
I haven't lost anything except my mind (except my mind)

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything,
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you.

I haven't wasted a thing except my time (except my time)
Forget the treasures we burned because we'll be just fine
I try to take off my head sometimes
because I can't escape for the life of me,
I haven't lost anything except my mind (my mind)

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow,
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you

Instead of going underground
Instead of calling them out
Instead of running 'cause your still breathing
Instead of swallowing lies
Instead of buried alive
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
If you need a confession, I'm guilty
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
Do you think I feel sorry? Forgive me.
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
Instead of going underground
Instead of calling them out
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you

Casablanca Sucked Anyways: A DAY TO REMEMBER

I’ve spent so much time trying to fix your life that I forgot about mine.
This time I’m putting my foot straight through the floor.
You wont be walking through any of my doors anymore.
So tell me what’s so wrong with me that you could leave so easily.
You threw this all away for the chance to leave me.
She makes me happy.
She sparks a light inside you’ve never failed to blow out.
Look at everything.
Look at all that you’ve become…nothing more than a memory.
So tell me what’s so wrong with me that you could leave so easily.
You threw this all away for the chance to leave me.
You make me sick with every move you make.
When will you find your place in this world?
Cause it will never be beside me again.
So tell me what’s so wrong with me that you could leave so easily.
You threw this all away for the chance to leave me.

Good Song.

We've All Heard;

we’ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard damn poets urging us to seize the day. still sometimes, we have to see for ourselves. we have to make our own mistakes. we have to learn our own lessons. we have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. until we finally understand for ourselves what benjamin franklin really meant. that knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.....

IDK My Bff Jill

So my little 13 yr old brother texted me asked me "What's it like to be in love?"

...for everyone out there I'll tell you what I think.

I think its different for everyone. Its as individual as the person. It feels like you're safe and not alone. Its growing old. Working things out. Its making it work. Not only accepting someone else but also yourself. It feels good. It's like...a state of being. Its not just a 4 letter word. But today it doesnt mean the same thing as it used to..I mean look back +50 years. It was commitment. Now I'm not saying it's still not the same thing but this kind of love is less common. Look at most peoples grandparents. They are most likely still together...but love is always evolving. But its really just a basic thing thats hard to describe. Theres different kinds of love though. Like you can love a movie, a pet, a person who isn't a family member or your homeboy in a non gay way. Then of course theres family love. But honestly, i think love is just something someone came up with and we've all been raised with hearing about it and seeing it you know? I mean do you have a family member you've never met and they're like "I love you". Ever ask yourself Why? I mean they dont even know you. We've all been conditioned to react powerfully to it because everyone makes it a big deal. I mean most kids first words are Momma, or Dadda right? Why? Is it maybe because thats the thing they hear the most? Momma this, Dadda that? I think love is learning. You learn....If you tell a parrot hello enough times chances are its going to repeat it. So love is basically learning in a way. Love is whatever you want it to be.

10 Items That You Think Make You Cool, But Don't

Being cool is normally subjective. But there are some things that unequivocally make you uncool.

10. iPhone



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: You can access e-mails, high speed internet, and watch videos, all on your phone. Because really, normal people around you are so fuccccking boring you can hardly stand actually interacting with them.

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: I’ve done some research and iPhone is actually a Japanese word that means “something that’s not able to be put in a pocket and instead must be carried in your hand at all times or set on the table in front of you so that any one around you can see it. This may sound shocking, but when someone remarks how hot it is, they’re not asking you to look up the temperature in both farenheit and celcius, or show them a clip on a 3 inch screen from “An Inconvenient Truth” in an effort to relate this heat to global warming. Unfortunately, I own an iPhone. Heh...fancy that.

9.Ironic Belt Buckles



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: Now you can show up in bars and point at your belt buckle and tell people that you are a “Rodeo Champion” or a “Pac Man” or a “Truck Driver” or a “Jack Daniels.” And while they will know that you are actually none of these things, you think you’re being playful and a little bit mysterious. You also think this tactic will help you pick up women.

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: You’re the same person who has ironic facial hair (mustache), drinks ironic beer (PBR) and wears ironic T-shirts (Lucky Charms). You spend your entire life trying to look as shitty and poor as possible while, chances are, you have rich parents or a job for an accounting firm that pays you over $60,000. In four years you will be a Republican living in the suburbs and complaining about your 401k over wine spritzers at dinner parties.


8. Blue Tooth Headset



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: All the other losers have to use their hands when they talk on the phone. Not you! You can talk on your phone and at the same time safely give some loser the finger because they’re only driving the speed limit. It’s Tuesday, doesn’t this asshole know you have your jujitsu class at 24 hour fitness to go to?

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: I don’t give a shit if you’re talking to someone on the other end, when you’re in a Subway Sandwiches and they’re trying to take your order while you say “Listen, you give me that paperwork for the Johnson account by tomorrow or it’s your ass. No mayo. I said no Mayo! Yeah, that’s right, Johnson account on my desk! No pepperoncinis! it’s pretty god damn confusing and asshole-ish to everyone trying to deal with you. Answer your phone when you have time to hold it in your hand. The only people that should be wearing blue tooth wireless headsets are military field generals and the people that work the day after thanksgiving sale at Old Navy.

7. Quoting Austin Powers/Borat/Old School



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: Put on your earmuffs because that woman has a vageen that hangs like sleeve of wizard. Yeah, baby! Those movies are HILARIOUS, thus if you can quote them, by default you’re hilarious too!

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: We all enjoy quoting our favorite movies, but let’s put these three to bed. Not only did I have every last bit of dialogue to the Borat movie screamed in my face three months before it came out, but let’s face it, Austin Powers wasn’t funny 10 years ago. And I still have to hear people telling me that “circus folk smell vaguely of cabbage.” On top of it, everyone murders the accents. Whenever I hear some asshole in a bar trying doing his version of Borat, somehow he sounds like a tongueless Canadian with a sock in his mouth. This has to stop or I am going to skip the earmuffs and go directly to cutting my ears off. But I'm not going to lie, I love when people who are good at the Borat voice do it. It's just the people that can't who need to stop.

6. PT Cruiser



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: It’s like a car from back in the thirties! It’s sleek design and throw back look allows everyone tailgating in the parking lot at the Dave Matthews concert know that you’re a free spirit who is all about having good times!

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: If you’ve ever wondered what a gay transformer would turn in to, wonder no more. Not only do they call a retarded amount of attention to themselves on the road, when you drive them you look like a soccer mom whose transporting alcohol during the prohibition era.

5. Tricked Out Bicycles



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: I honestly have no idea.

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: Instead of looking like some hipper, younger version of a real biker (who actually is cool), you just look like some 8th-grader who blew his allowance on sparklers for his tricycle. With its weirdly-bent handlebars and wacky forks, your “cruiser” looks like the elephant man of bikes. Plus, these things are clearly uncomfortable to ride. I love watching some tattooed douchebag try to look laid back and cool after he had to dislocate both of his shoulders just to reach the handlebars. Not to mention, you could’ve gotten a friggin’ car for what you paid for this piece of crap. Dumbass.

4. Fidel Castro Hats



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: Wearing a Fidel Castro hat let’s the world know that you’re different and that you have thoughts and ideas that make you significantly more special and free thinking than those who wear traditional baseball hats.

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: You know why the Communist Cuba Military can get away with wearing them? Because they carry automatic weapons. You most likely carry a compilation book of Charles Bukowski poems. The tiny bill and camoflauged coloring make you look like a retarded son of a army ranger who had a pair of scissors and access to his father’s closet. I realize you want to tell the world you’re a non-comformist, but unfortunately being a non-conformist means you’re conforming to non-conformism. You might want to ponder that at that next record release party for a band no one’s heard of that you’re pretending to like.

3. Guitar Hero



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: Dude, this game totally rocks! I love this song! Hell yes! Welcome to the Jungle, baby! You’re gonna diiiiiiiiiiiee!

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: Despite what the commercial says, you do not suddenly turn into Slash when you’re playing this video game. You are playing a child-sized guitar that doesn’t even have strings. It has multi-colored buttons and an on/off button. And playing this video game does not mean you can play the guitar now. If I have to hear someone say “I can totally play ‘Anarchy in the UK’” but actually mean “I can totally play ‘Anarchy in the UK’ on Guitar Hero,” I am going to take a pee inside the nearest PS3.

2. Longboard Skateboards



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: You’re just a laid back dude who likes to cruise the streets and board walks but still has the credibility shared by those who ride smaller, more dangerous boards.

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: You’re basically one step away from being the little kid at Costco who jumps on the big grocery cart when his mother isn’t looking. Whereas if a normal skateboarder falls he injures himself, you’re traveling at speeds that allow those walking to pass you, and if you fall, you’ll most likely fall on the board and continue traveling. Hence, you’re basically riding a skateboard designed for those without any coordination or athletic ability. It’d be like playing baseball, except replacing the ball with a giant stuffed animal.

1. Funny Ringtones



WHY YOU THINK YOU’RE COOL: A ring tone is a great way to give strangers and coworkers a little peek into your personal life and let them know that your grasp of pop culture is vast. You’re pretty sure that having a silly quote from Monty Python or the Transformers theme song as your ringtone will make those around you realize that you are a the guy everyone else wants to be. There is definitely more to you than meets the eye.

WHY YOU’RE NOT COOL: Having your phone play Right Said Fred’s “I’m Too Sexy” just makes you look (and sound) like an asshole. And the fact that you let it “ring” 15 times while you stand there and look around for reactions to your hilarious little joke not only reeks of desperation, but it makes everyone around you want to cram that phone up your taint. Put it on vibrate like every other normal person and keep your witticisms between you and your collection of Star Wars figurines.




I should have become a journalist. Ughhh I love writing.

Just Keep A Hold On Me And Dont Let Go...

Let's sail away
Find our own country
We'll build a house and beds out of palm trees
Let's get away
Let's push our lives aside

I'll sport a smile
Take in some color
Under the stars
I'll be your lover
With no distractions I'm gonna treat you right

Well it seems like things are only getting better
Well it seems like we can never catch a break

Just a keep a hold on me don't let go
If you float away, if you float away
Waiting too long for a ship to come
Don't you float away, don't you float away

Let's go to bed
Let's stop debating
Look at the time
We're always waiting
But we're in love
And that should be just fine

Well it seems like things are only getting better
Well it seems like we can never catch a break

Just keep a hold on me don't let go
If you float away, if you float away
Waiting too long for a ship to come
Don't you float away, don't you float away

And if you like (and if you like)
and if you like some other time
I would like to introduce you to the finer things
If we survive (if we survive)
If we survive, get out alive
I'd like to say how beautiful I think you...

Just a keep a hold on me don't let go
If you float away, if you float away
Waiting too long for a ship to come
Don't you float away, don't you float away

How Sad You're Gonna Be...

You never write me or nothing
I set myself up to fall
I was stupid then to try

And I’m living a lie
I’m in a fantasy world
but the hero won't win this time
'Cause a pipe dream gets flushed away

By all means I’m getting mad
but that don’t mean I don’t feel sorry for you

How sad you’re gonna be
I wish I could stick around
to see your face when you realize you’ve permanently changed
and it’s all thanks to me
I was wrong for coming here
You’ll wake alone and run around your lonely home
Look for my face but I’m already gone

You, you never call
You never write me or nothing
I set myself up to fall
I was stupid then to try

There was something in the way
something in the way
something in the way that you shut the door
I couldn’t get enough, when you’d blow me off
I just kept dragging myself back for more

By all means I’m getting mad
but that don’t mean I don’t feel sorry for you

How sad you’re gonna be
I wish I could stick around
to see your face when you realize you’ve permanently changed
and it’s all thanks to me
I was wrong for coming here
You’ll wake alone and run around your lonely home
Look for my face but I’m already gone

One day you’re gonna see the life sentence you gave to me
but I swear, one day we will share this cell
I know it’s cold but I will keep us warm
with all the hate I radiate
We’ll be walking hand in hand in hell
(We’ll be walking hand in hand in hell)

How sad you’re gonna be
I wish I could stick around
to see your face when you realize you’ve permanently changed
and it’s all thanks to me
I was wrong for coming here
You’ll wake alone and run around your lonely home
Look for my face but I’m already gone