Lachrymosa

are victorian era tear catchers, or tear vials. sometimes worn on a necklace, sometimes merely held, they were used the gather the tears wept by mourners at funerals. one type of lachrymosa had a special top which allowed the tears to evaporate (signifying the time to stop mourning), others had a sealed top to allow the tears to last for a year, at which point they would be poured on the grave of the person whom the tears were wept for.

Know Loneliness.

“don’t attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you’re lonely. loneliness is the human condition. no one is ever going to fill that space. the best you can do is know yourself… know what you want."
- ingrid magnussen  

To the mountains

there are nights, & there are other nights. we feel our highs, we feel our lows. we feel the sadness crushing our bones. we wallow in our self doubt, what we are & what we’re not. we seek to destroy our selves but what good what that do. open your arms, fill them with happiness. the kind of happiness you can touch. something tangible. fill yourself with the music of your body. feel yourself, each particle. even if you feel you are crawling in your skin. let it crawl. let it shift. embrace it. we write our words, our words are right. they’re the happiness, the sadness inside of ourselves. keep them balanced. you are beautiful & you are living & things will lift you up soon enough. lift you up towards the mountain tops.

There Are Days

There are days when everything seems wrong, when little things just irk you for no good reason. And then there are days like today when the whole world just sings to you from the minute you open your eyes in the morning, till the minute you shut them again at night....

Stand outside my window throwing pebbles;

Me and my stupid pride are sitting here alone
Going through the photographs, staring at the phone
I keep going back over things we both said
And all the things that I misread

So baby, if you know everything
Tell me why you couldn't see
When I left I wanted you to chase after me
I said leave but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming I'm in love with you
Wait there in the pouring rain coming back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

Reapa

Reaper is the best show



Oh em geeeee

Something To Believe

The faces all around me they don't smile they just crack
Waiting for our ship to come but our ships not coming back
We do our time like pennies in a jar
What are we saving for

There's a smell of stale fear that's reeking from our skins.
The drinking never stops because the drinks absolve our sins
We sit and grow our roots into the floor
But what are we waiting for?

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

Something's always coming you can hear it in the ground
It swells into the air
With the rising
Rising sound
And never comes but shakes the boards and rattles all the doors
What are we waiting for

I am hiding from some beast
But the beast was always here
Watching without eyes
Because the beast is just my fear
That I am just nothing
Now its just what I've become
What am I waiting for, it's already done

Glitch

Some things are easier said then done.

Gonna Watch The Blue Winds Roll

When I wake up this morning
Tell ya what I'm going to do
Going to pack my suitcases honey
Going to leave with you
Down to Austin
Yes I'm going down to see the town hang around down in Austin
Yeah I'm going down to Austin going down to watch the armadillos rootin
Armadillos rootin all around

Well now when I get down to Austin
I'm going to sit right down
Yeah I'm going to drink some of those lone star beers honey
Going to hang around down in Austin
Yes I'm going down to see the town hang around down in Austin
Yeah I'm going down to Austin going down to watch the armadillos rootin
Armadillos rootin all around

Well when I get down to Austin
Tell ya where I'm going to go
Going down to the railways
I'm gonna watch the blue winds roll
Down to Austin
Yes I'm going down to see the town hang around down in Austin
Yeah I'm going down to Austin going down to watch the armadillos rootin'
Armadillos rootin' all around

When I'm going down to Austin
Tell ya what I'm going to do
Going to pack my suitcases honey
Going to leave with you
Down to Austin
Yes I'm going down to see the town hang around down in Austin
Well I'm going down to Austin going down to watch the armadillos rootin
Armadillos rootin all around
Well I'm going down to Austin going down to watch the armadillos rootin
Armadillos rootin all around
Well I'm going down to Austin going down to watch the armadillos rootin
Armadillos rootin all around

Hey Armadillo

Hey armadillo what you doing in the garden
Slumbering and spherical, you're always hanging around
Leather on the outside but a delicate interior
Very like a lot of human beings I have found

Hey armadillo I can't tell which way you're facing
Maybe that's a good thing, maybe you don't even know
No one's gonna bother you if they can't find your front end
There again I guess you find your love life rather slow

In the armadillo circle
In that armour-plated set
The philosophy is simple
What you see ain't what you get
In the armadillo culture
In that well-protected creed
A solid hide to hide in
Is the only thing you need
Hey armadillo

Hey armadillo what you doing in the desert
Is a life of burrowing the answer to it all
What I would give to leave my problems six feet underground
And always be the perfect shape to be, and have, a ball

I Can Break And Take It With A Smile

I catalog these steps now
Decisive and intentioned
Precise and patterned specifically to yours.
I'm talented at breathing
Especially exhaling
So that my chest will rise and fall with yours

I'm careful not to wake you
Fearing conversation
It's better just to hold you
And keep you pacified
I'm talented with reason
I cover all the angles
I can fail before I ever try

Try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break)
I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break
Or I can break and take it with a smile
And I am so resilient
I recover quickly
I'll convince you soon that I am fine

Man You Oughta See Her Fly

She loved him like he was the last man on earth
Gave him everything she ever had
He'd break her spirit down
Then come lovin' up on her
Give a little
Then take it back

She'd tell him 'bout her dreams
He'd just shoot 'em down
Lord he loved to make her cry
You're crazy for believing you'll ever leave the ground
He said only angels know how to fly

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye on the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta see her fly

Silly Woman Come Here Let Me Hold You

Baby why you wanna cry?
You really oughta know that I
Just have to walk away sometimes

We're gonna do what lovers do
We're gonna have a fight or two
But I ain't ever changing my mind

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like crazy, girl?

I wouldn't last a single day
I'd probably just fade away
Without you I'd lose my mind

Before you ever came along
I was living life all wrong
The smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman, come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like crazy, girl?
Like crazy, girl

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like crazy, girl?

Like crazy
Crazy girl

I Wish You Were Here

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn 
across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind, pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy

Question

Who did you wind up liking that you didn’t want anything to do with at first?

Question Of The Day

What is missing from your life that you used to get from a person you are no longer around, no longer with, or cannot be with?

On That Day

Yesterday I thought about the victims of the 1993 World Trade Center bombing, and the 2004 attack on a school in Beslan, Russia. And the train bombings in Madrid in 2004. And the nightclub bombing in Bali in 2002. And the terrorist attacks in Mumbai in 2008. And the thousands of attacks that have killed tens of thousands of Iraqis over the past ten years.

Who mourns these deaths, except the friends and families of the victims? Who mourns the many, many thousands who have been wounded and maimed? 

9/11 is not just a day for Americans. Nearly 400 people from other countries lost their lives on that day as well, including 66 Britons, 47 Dominicans, 41 Indians, 28 Koreans, 24 Japanese, 24 Canadians and many others, including from Switzerland, Ghana, Jamaica, China, Peru, New Zealand, Mexico, Ukraine, Uzbekistan, Portugal, Brazil, France and El Salvador. 

And since that September day, civilians have been killed by terrorists on every day of the year, year after year.

When September Ends

As my memory rests... But never forgets what I lost... Wake me up when September ends...

Zombie Killers With Mics

The Zombie Killin Clan..so far:

ReviveMe ImDown --U.S
iRevive4Points --Australia
iNeedAMaxAmmo--U.S
TR3YARCH SUKZ--Canada
????? LeaveACrawler (maybe)--??


You can't stop us.

The Dog That Chases The Car;

It's gotten bad and things are different. Somehow...you lost yourself out there. Things used to be good. Really good. But there's this new you and I don't know if I can go on like this anymore. This shouldn't even be that hard. We arent near eachother so that already makes it more difficult. But it shouldn't be...But it helps when you're actually there. You asked me to be there for you and I am but that means you need to just be here. I'm so lost and it seems like I'm not going to find my way back and that makes me sad. You know when you have something so good and then it's just gone? I know the signs I've been here before every single word... So if this is the new you I don't know if I want any part in this. Unfriendly. Cold. And silent. So silent. The quietness is probably what bothers me the most it's like everything's okay and then BAM...I mean...did I do something? Say too much or not enough? If I'm just running in circles just tell me. I'm tired of feeling like this. 

Losing Too Many Miles At Once....

you've got to get better,
said, it's all in your head,
we could live through these letters
or forget it altogether,
see the months they dont matter
its the days i can't take
when the hours move to minutes
and i'm seconds away,

just ask the question come untie the knot
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
retrace the steps, as if we forgot,
say you won't care,
say you won't care,
you try to avoid it, but there's not a doubt
and there's one thing i can do nothing about...

when all that we need is just a reaction,
its too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore,
chasing our dreams is just a distraction
i want to remember what i know...
that i can't go back,

Excuse Me, You're One Heck Of A Guy

Anyway I think I met him sometime before
In a different life or where I record
I mean he was Adam, I think I was Eve
But my vision ends with the apple on the tree
'S' on my chest cuz I'm ready to save him
Cuz I'm the one like I'm Tracy McGrady



Anyway I think I met him in the Sky
When I was a Geisha he was a Samari
Somehow I understood him when he spoke Thai
Never spoke lies and he never broke fly

If I Fedex My Love,
Will You Sign For My Heart?

Ohh Boy

He always in the air, but he never fly coach
He a motherfucking trip, trip, sailor of the ship, ship
When he make it drip, drip kiss him on the lip, lip
That's the kind of dude I was lookin' for
And yes you'll get slapped if you're lookin' hoe
I said, excuse me you're a hell of a guy
I mean my, my, my, my you're like pelican fly
I mean, you're so shy and I'm loving your tie
You're like slicker than the guy with the thing on his eye

Bottle Caps

A dreamer who searched for treasure,
but only found bottle caps

Good Morning Singapore

Good morning Singapore I'm bringing the sun with me
From the Robert Taylor homes to African slum cities
I am American mentally with Japanese tendencies
Got my gold watch
And my gold chain
With my fancy car
And my diamond ring
With my ghetto broad
And she's so plain
Gotta couple SCARS
And one of those long names
And she fight a nigga
And cusses wit no shame
Let's peruse the essential of cool
A brief study of the things so instrumental to you
That make me feel flyer than lobbys at bellevues
An exclaimer just aramore no credentials from a school
My not go to college but my street smart polished
Like the black finger nails of that punk rock logic
Do the knowledge, man you can't be punk from projects
Firm disbeliever in your punch clock promise
Got my gold watch
And my gold chain
With my fancy car
And my diamond ring
With my fancy broad
And she full grain
So it's no words
And it's no slang
And I'm no trick
And I'm no lame
It's just so sick
That she's so game

Lost At Sea

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Fishhhhhh

I love to see her silhouette reflectin' off the water
With her hooks and her sinkers and her pretty pink bobbers
The first time I saw her I knew I was in love
'Cause I found a girl who loves to...

Fish, I love to see her lyin'
There on the bank 'neath the full moon light
Man, I can't even believe my luck