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Scared to chase your dreams scared to take a risk... Think its make believe... so you hate the shit... Valentine love it... grimier then rubbish... You softer then a snuggie and you sweeter then a Sunkist

Don't See Lightening Like Last Fall

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder
What are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder
Is there anything I'm going to miss
I wonder How it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there is no one there to talk to, between you and me
'Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like...
The hammocks by the doorway we spent time in
Swings empty, don't see lightning like last fall when it was always
About to hit
Me
I wonder how's it going to be when it goes down
Hows it going to be
When your not around
Hows it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care
How's it going to be.
Hows it going to be
When you don't know me any more
And how's it going to be

And Heaven's Not Enough If When I'm There I Don't Remember You;

Heaven's not enough
If when you get there..
Just another blue
And heaven's not enough
You think you've found it
And it loses you

You've thought of all there is
But not enough
And it loses you in a cloud

"there" most everything is nothin'
That it seems
"where" you see the things you only wanna see

I'd fly away
To a higher plane
To say words i resist
To float away
To sigh
To breathe.... forget

And heaven's not enough
If when i'm there i don't remember you
And heaven does enough
You think you know it
And it uses you

I saw so many things
But like a dream
Always losing me in a cloud

Cause i couldn't cry
Cause i turned away
Couldn't see the score
Didn't know the pain
Of leaving yesterday really far behind
In another life
In another dream
By a different name
Gave it all away
For a memory
And a quiet lie
And i felt the face
Of a cold tonight
Still don't know the score
But i know the pain
Of leaving everything really far behind
And if i could cry
And if i could live what truth i did then take me there
Heaven goodbye

You're A Coward And A Liar;

I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to. I hope you find it, what your looking for and I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be, and so much more and I hope your happy wherever you are

He Won't Go....

Some say I’ll be better without you

But they don’t know you like I do

Or at least the sides I thought I knew

I cant bear this time

It drags on as I lose my mind

Reminded by things I find

Like notes and clothes you left behind

Wake me up, wake me up when all is done

I wont rise until this battle’s won

My dignity’s become undone

So petrified, I’m so scared to step into this ride

What if I lose my heart and fail declined?

I wont forgive me if i give up trying

I heard his voice today

I didn’t know a single word he said

Not one resemblance to the man I met

Just a vacant broken boy instead

Will he… will he still remember me?

Will he still love me even when he’s free?

Or will he go back to the place where he would chose the poison over me?

When we spoke yesterday,

You said to hold my breath… to sit and wait

“I’ll be home so soon, I wont be late”

He wont go....

I let it fall, my heart,

And as it fell, you also claim it.

It was dark, and I was all right,

Until you kissed my lips and you saved me.

My hands, they're strong, but my knees were far too weak.

Stand in your arms without falling into your feet.

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew.

All the things you say, they were never true, never true.

And the games you play, you would always win, always win.

Until The End Starts...

You've been on my mind

I grow fonder every day,

lose myself in time just thinking of your face

God only knows why it's taking me so long

to let my doubts go

You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before

Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,

You never know if you never try to forget your past

And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

Promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms

So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can

Walk that mile

Until the end starts

Have I been on your mind?

You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time

At the mention of my name, will I ever know

How it feels to hold you close

And have you tell me which ever road I chose you'll go

You Made My Heart Melt, Yet I'm Cold To The Core

When will I see you again?

You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,

No final kiss to seal any seams,

I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

When was the last time you thought of me?

Or have you completely erased me from your memory?

I often think about where I went wrong,

The more I do, the less I know

Gave you the space so you could breathe,

I kept my distance so you would be free,

And hope that you find the missing piece,

To bring you back to me

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name

So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me

No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me

Next time I'll be braver

I'll be my own savior

When the thunder calls for me

I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

That for me it isn't over

Never mind

I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you too

"Don't forget me", I beg

"I'll remember", you said

"Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead."

Only yesterday

It was the time of our lives

We were born and raised

In a summer haze

Bound by the surprise

Of our glory days